The straw girl

(Story of an anonymous girl as told by someone else)

Let me start by saying I love you guys

Loved you too much probably

You became my sun and moon

All I ever wanted to do was to please you

Except sadly I couldn’t even do that

And I doubt I will ever be able to

Not in this life time at least

And what angers me the most is that there won’t be another

No do-over

I don’t know why I had been waiting for one all this time

Deluding myself,

waiting for it to just be around the corner

You see when I said I loved you

I meant, I loved how you treated everyone else

How you were there for everyone when they needed you

How you always put others before yourselves

How you went to every extent possible, giving up on even yourselves

But heres the thing that kills me the most

You gave me up too

That time you gave up for their sake, I had a right on it too

You never asked me though,

Maybe because it was a foreign concept to you too

Naturally, I was just supposed to go with the flow

Accepting it as another one of your responsibilities

What about me though? Wasn’t I one too?

Was I not good enough for you?

Why weren’t you there to help me figure myself out when I needed you the most?

Why couldn’t you be strong enough for US and said no to everyone else when I needed you most!

You tried though, I will give you that much

Tried your best I have always been willing to give you that, until now

Now My own words betray me

But you too have always been helpless

So you gave me what you didn’t have as a child

You tried to fill the void with money and getting me all that I wanted

Little did you realise that all I ever needed was you by my side

Don’t you remember, you lacked time as well, time and company,

And yet you went ahead and gave it away

My greatest bequest of all

I blame myself everyday

For things I know aren’t my fault

Most of them anyway

I tear myself up bit by bit

N all there’s left now

Are pieces of straw!

A broken piece of a broken family

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18 thoughts on “The straw girl

  1. I observe my surrounding a lot and this was from somebody’s actual story…I am glad u liked it n yeah maybe our thinking does resemble a lot 😬

  2. But then u do see light at the end of the tunnel and get transformed like never before..i hope u make it through and realise you are much more than just your depression

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